Feline Warrior

There are weird formatting issues using the WP editor. It makes me weepish.

This song came to mind just now: Howard Jones’ "What is Love?" (lyrics below)

The question is a good one - how do we know what it is, or if, when we feel it, it’s real? How do you trust what appears to be love? They can change over time, they can ebb, flow, rise, fall… and not always in concert. That is, in a romantic couple, the feelings of one may not mirror the other’s. Then what?

Love isn’t limited to romance, of course. There is love among friends… I’ve loved friends, lost the friendships, and never stopped loving those people. Sometimes they even come back into my life.

People, they come, they go; sometimes they come back again. Even when they don’t, the spaces in my heart for them don’t close. (Okay, maybe a few times there’s been the echoing sounds of a chamber door slamming shut!)

I know a man who says that he’ll never trust another person (woman) so deep are the wounds from several past wives. It appears that he’s serious, too. I don’t think I could do that. It’s difficult to imagine what would have to happen to shut me down in that way.

Me… I’ll love again. Oh, hell – I already love. I didn’t stop loving. I think that from the minute I was born, I loved. There were sources that tried to keep me from loving, I suppose you could say; FelineWarrior is one resilient cat, that’s for sure.

For me, love goes on and on and on. It just looks different, feels different, in different situations. It scares people sometimes, I think, when they are the recipients of love. I wish it weren’t so; love is such a precious (if plentiful) commodity. To feel it, as to share it, is a wonderful, wonderful expression.

What is Love?

I love you whether or not you love me
I love you even if you think that I don’t.
Sometimes I find you doubt my love for you but I don’t mind.
Why should I mind? Why should I mind?
What is love anyway?
Does anybody love anybody anyway?
What is love anyway?
Does anybody love anybody anyway?
Can anybody love anyone so much that they will never fear
Never worry never be sad?The answer is they cannot love this much
nobody can.
This is why I don’t mind you doubting.
What is love anyway?. . .
And maybe love is letting people be just
what they want to be
The door always must be left unlocked.
To love when circumstance may lead someone away from you
And not to spend the time just doubting.What is love anyway? . . .

You know how the Google-box is: One minute you’re trying to relive youthful memories of punk rock gigs around Orange County, CA, the next minute, you’re hip-deep in videos of some of the best bands ever.

I had the good fortune to grow up at a time when the punk rock scene was exploding on the west coast and the even better fortune to see much of it up close and personal. Today, I came across some videos that I will share with you - musical memoirs of a punkrockesha, if you will.

It was my original intent to write a bunch about this, but alas, the reason I was able to watch so many videos was that I was home with a cold; I slept on and off throughout the day, never finished the post, and so here’s an abbreviated version of the original post.

Let’s start with a few interviews of two members of one of my favorite bands: X.

Exene Cervenka: http://swindlemagazine.com/issueicons/exene-cervenka

Billy Zoom: http://www.popmatters.com/pm/article/billy-zoom-puts-x-in-perspective

Onto the videos!

X: Los Angeles: www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGhgdxoPQbE and

Johnny Hit and Run Paulene: www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRWunSUmEm4

Fear: www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8B2WuudHXs

Circle Jerks @ Stardust Ballroom, c. 1984:www.viddler.com/explore/VideoLouis/videos/244/14.571#

Tex and the Horseheads @ Black radio, c. 1986: www.viddler.com/explore/VideoLouis/videos/206/

The Minutemen @ Club Lingerie, c. 1984: www.viddler.com/explore/VideoLouis/videos/256/

Gang Green (no info): www.viddler.com/explore/UndrgroundMusic/videos/2/

The Germs: www.viddler.com/explore/UndrgroundMusic/videos/7/

Black Flag (with lyrics, oddly enough): www.viddler.com/explore/UndrgroundMusic/videos/6/

Eddie and the Subtitles: www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHyMnOKe93s&feature=related (sadly no actual video, just an album cover - these were Fullerton boys!)

The Avengers @ The Masque c. 1978: www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ZrQ33NbSbY

Here’s a fab database of shows and venues: www.flipsidefanzine.com/Liveshowhome.html

And there’s great vids here, too: http://punkrocksaves.blogspot.com/

…and now it’s bedtime for the FW!